Officially made it to post Number 31. It’s been a long ass month. Still here, still fighting the good fight and still taking hits. To be honest, it’s not really hard finding things to write about (especially POV blog-style).
What takes a toll on you are those very stressful days that drain every ounce of life energy before the evening arrives. When you finally finish everything: Waking up, work, three meals, exercise, social responsibilities, personal life… THEN you remember your year-long promise, and say “shit, my day hasn’t finished yet. One of the most important things I have to do is yet to be done. Fuck me, now I gotta sit down and actually write something before the night is over.”
I may complain occasionally, but the truth is that most of the times I’m actually loose and eager to express myself and be appreciated by other fellow writers and readers. If I’m lucky, I’ll even get a comment or private message in regards to the post.
Now that I think about it, the main reason why my posts always start talking about one thing, and around the middle part it takes another route, (usually with a more organized train of thought leading up to a definitive conclusion) it’s because of the internal battle that begins in my mind with “let’s write”, continues with me opening the laptop, and ends when I start typing those first two paragraphs. Then everything starts making sense. I find my rhythm, my voice, and the motivation to be authentic yet again for another day.
I would love to have the time to create drafts and edit them BEFORE posting online, but that’s the whole point of this blog: To have a no-filter, unplanned and unstudied writing being published every day. Some are good, some are bad (hey, even Kerouac had his off days on the road), some of them I read a couple of days later and think: Damn, this can be developed further into a more serious piece. Will get back to it eventually and craft a masterpiece (spoiler alert, I never do).
But hey, I still have 11 more months to go; this is barely starting. My word is my bond.
The goal will always stay the same:
Honest words being published, each and every day.