I’ve been staring at this blank page for about 15 minutes now, including the 20 tabs I’ve opened and closed multiple times to ‘find inspiration’. None, nothing, zilch. I’m completely blank today.
Tiredness is a factor, being out in the sun at 84F is another, not getting a full night sleep since past Friday is probably the decisive factor. The goal tonight is to be on my way to dream-town already by midnight, maybe sooner. The possibility gets me so excited that I can’t even fall asleep.
If I had to guess, it’s some sort of anxiety. Not the one that brings you down and suffocates you, inhibiting you from doing anything else. But more like the one that’s on the back of your mind constantly reminding you all that’s about to come.
In my case, I have a 5-day trip starting tomorrow. It’s fully packed with activities, events, places to visit and long drives. My mind doesn’t let me move past all those matters until they get realized. Must be some kind of defense mechanism to help me maintain focus and save energies for what’s in the imminent future.
Ok, drifted away while writing this. Did my social media checking cycle, and wasted about 5 minutes doing nothing.
Yea, I’m tired and can’t think straight. Cutting it early tonight.
Next few nights will be kind of tough with the whole trip, but I’ll be sure to check-in to at least give short updates and keep my ‘a post every day for a year’ promise.
Don’t get mad. It’ll all be ok.