Tag: depression
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Society isn’t collapsing anytime soon, but is certainly getting destroyed every day that passes
Between global working and economic conditions, armed intimidation of the LGBTQ community, investment markets collapsing, excessive mounting debt, financial uncertainty, nationwide protests, people advocating a testing that ends in a 99% chimpanzee fatality rate… And those are the first things that came up in my feed, without even digging further down the algorithm. Just like…
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Coming to terms with the process [my process]
![Coming to terms with the process [my process]](https://bustibusti.files.wordpress.com/2022/12/s-l1600.jpeg?w=700)
Less than three weeks left to finish my whole year, writing this blog every day. I admit that lately I’ve been making a genuine attempt to produce quality content with some kind of substance, going beyond just being honest and authentic with this personal diary type writing. Most of the time, I’m discussing the same…
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A thought once a day, every day; some better than others
I know I should do a better job and put more effort into the content I’m writing so that it goes beyond this daily diary format of how am I feeling today; especially two weeks away from finishing this project (or, at least, honoring my promise of spending a whole year writing a post a…
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Think it (or feel it), write it, do it every day, then again, and again, and again…
There is so much to be said.I mean, smart things to be said (or written).And I bet that more than 60% of my posts are rant-complaints, 30% are depressing personal content (and more complaints) and maybe, just maybe, 10% have some kind of literary value. At least I take solace in knowing they’re 100% honest,…
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Round and round, we go; up and down; we go
Almost reached my limit this week. Had a few things already brewing after an intense weekend, and a couple of surprise freeze warnings threw me completely off my game. AND IT’S NOT EVEN WINTER YET! Fuck… Looking back just a few days ago, what a difference between the today, yesterday and tomorrow. Sometimes all you…
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Saturday [waste untitled]
![Saturday [waste untitled]](https://bustibusti.files.wordpress.com/2022/10/4-19-12-13-22-43-9m.jpeg?w=720)
Emotional energy drained. Literally, lying in bed not doing anything at all. Don’t even have my cellphone with me. Was looking for my comfy socks, and found my work MacBook under the bed. Decided to share a few words, but immediately wanted to quit. So, I’m gonna do that. Obey my impulses, not force myself.…
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Untitled – #8128957
Sometimes it really kicks my ass, sometimes I have total control over it. I would like to fully understand how it works, so I can maybe plan around it, challenge it, instead of being surprised on any given day at any given time. It sucks, but that’s life, and you have to keep at it…
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Fully booked for September
Today, I finally started to abandon the depressive rut I was in, and got productive. Decided to organize my calendar for the next month and plan ahead my financials. Guess what? I got clients booked for 20 days, plus a 6-day trip to see my mom out of state. That’s 26 out of 30, or…
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Failure to launch, think, write…
I’ve been here 17 minutes (and counting) looking at this screen, trying to think of something worthwhile to write about, while listening to a progressive house concert on YouTube. Zero ideas, zero positive thoughts. Just more rants and complaining. I still have almost 4 more months of this, and I gotta be honest, sometimes it’s…
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Medium-long path towards recovery
I can’t believe it’s gotten to this, but it looks like I really broke down, and it’s taking several days to rebuild back up again. There were too many heavy days, one after the other. The result was predictable. That’s how someone’s spirit gets broken. I would think I had a tougher exterior, but I…
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